one more week one more week...
that is my mantra leading up to the end of tax season.
i am having regular breakdowns these days. i can say with absolute certainty that i have never felt this way before and i have never felt so close to being at the end of my patience or at the end of my sanity. i probably have one tiny thread left, if any. i don't know what will make me feel better afterward either, which makes it seem even more doomed and dreary because i am uncertain about how long it will take for me to feel better even after jared is back helping more often again. he's been away for so long that it will take awhile to get back in the swing of things and i don't think i'll start feeling like i'm getting some relief until all 3 of us are synched back together again. he saw elliott twice in 7 days...once for probably 20 minutes in the morning before work, and once for a half hour holding him in the middle of the night when he woke up crying.
yes i have good parts of the day and some days seem pretty fun. of course i would rather be home taking care of him than have him in daycare every day. of course i love seeing him do new things and being his favorite. but overall i am not very happy these days and it's because i never get a break and am going crazy.
FDSJ:LKFEWJIOFEWJOI:FEWJIO:FEWJKLFEWKJL!I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the end
oh no! the end is near, the end is near! hang in there... i'm sure the weather is not helping but at least it sounds like things are warming up so that you can actually be outside. sorry to hear things have been so rough. :( hugs.
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